[2005-06-30] - [9:07 p.m.]
[mom & dad not getting on at all]
[I don't think my mom & dad are getting on all that good at the moment. Before I begin, may I apologise to anyone who has left me a note to which I haven't replied - I have just been busy doing stuff & haven't had time to write a half decent reply. Sorry again, but I will write a note as soon as I can [probably at the weekend sometime].
Anyway, mom & dad. For the last week or so they haven't actually spoken unless they have to & that normally turns into an argument. I'm trying not to take sides or anything, because I will just get the blame if I do that, but I have to say, I am totally with my dad on most things. My mom just seems totally stressed about everything & she gets pissed off at us whenever humanly possible. I know, I know, I don't get on with my mom so I am probably being really unfair on her, but this is my side of events.
Take last night, for example. I was happily talking to my dad about what I'd done that day at school & my mom just started yelling at us both about how we never stop talking & how on Earth is she supposed to get anything done if we won't shut up, etc. Okay, so we were talking. So what? She was going to bed anyway, does it matter that much? Maybe she feels left out, but that's hardley my fault, is it? It's not me who lied to everyone, is it? It's not me who distanced myself from everything, is it? Am I being unfair? Probably. It is hardley my fault that I can't love her because she lied. Is that so unreasonable? I can understand why she wouldn't want to tell me, but why was it okay to tell everyone else & let me find out for myself? Sure, I have issues with my mother, but they are not all my fault. Most of them are her fault. I cannot help how I feel about her.
Moving on I think. I have just managed to write over a hundred words for my French coursework, which is pretty good for me. I am a little stuck for the other fifty words, but I'm sure I'll think of something. Better go I suppose. I need to email M before I go to bed too.
A x]
The Girl: -
Aimz; Fourteen; Crazy; Odd; Sarcastic; Brown Hair; Blue Eyes; Short; Skinny; Accident prone; Clever; Romantic deep down; Paranoid.
Loves: -
Three Days Grace; Simple Plan; Horror Films; Love Films; Any other films; Avril Lavigne; Kelly Clarkson; Green Day; Friends; Mobiles; MSN; The Internet; 'Casualty'; 'Holby City'; Photos.
Hates: -
Most manufactured bands; People who don't try to understand; People who are two-faced; Smoking; Cancer; Getting the blame; Having no money; Rain ruining my eyeliner; Families.