[2005-04-26] - [6:54 p.m.]
[i'm iiiiiiiiill! being ill sucks]
[Me & Lexi went for another bike ride today after school, that was cool. I have to remember to tell her that thing after SAT's cause she wants to know & that. I may tell Sarah too if Lexi's nice about it. Or I may chicken out totally & lie. Any thoughts? Truth or lies? Tell the truth & take the risk? Or carry on living the lie? *shrugs* Hard choice actually. Living a lie is cool in a way, it means I can be whoever I wanna be & it's all good. If I tell the truth then there's no going back. I can't take it back & I can't make her forget. I don't know.
Back to today! CDT was kinda crap, the internet at school sucks a lot. It takes half an hour to load one page! I nearly beat up the keyboard! But I had this weird random convo with Ali & Michael so that was cool. & in art we all basically did our English homework cause she was sooo unfair to give us all that homework & no one did it. #### happens. & I bought a shoe from Miss M!!!!! No joke! & I walked around wearing this seriously high purple shoes, fun fun fun!!!
English was...English. I hate English, but at the same time, I like it. I don't know why. But I don't think I hate it for the same reason as everyone else. Miss S says some stuff sometimes that I can totally sympathise with.
If it's something really important, but you keep it locked inside, what happens?
I could tell her exactly what happens but I don't. Because? Because that would mean telling her everything & I don't do that. One day I'll tell someone what happens when there's no one in the world you can talk to because you never know what they'll say & in the end it's whether you can take the chance or not. Again, that comes back the whole Lexi - do I tell her or not thing. *shrugs* I'm kinda thinking about it. Tossing it up.
Our bike ride was funny though! Lexi went crashing into a metal gate cause her brakes don't work! She was in hysterics for like aaaages! It was funny! We do a lot of random things, me & her. Shame Sarah couldn't come. Maybe another time?
A x]
The Girl: -
Aimz; Fourteen; Crazy; Odd; Sarcastic; Brown Hair; Blue Eyes; Short; Skinny; Accident prone; Clever; Romantic deep down; Paranoid.
Loves: -
Three Days Grace; Simple Plan; Horror Films; Love Films; Any other films; Avril Lavigne; Kelly Clarkson; Green Day; Friends; Mobiles; MSN; The Internet; 'Casualty'; 'Holby City'; Photos.
Hates: -
Most manufactured bands; People who don't try to understand; People who are two-faced; Smoking; Cancer; Getting the blame; Having no money; Rain ruining my eyeliner; Families.